I didn't put my name because I know they're going to find me:

1. The same faces in completely different hospitals.
2. Longer time to get self sufficient off the medicine because I'm getting older.
3. People tell their stories of suicide and violence and I just sigh with no story alike whatsoever.
4. On my last hospital stay in a State hospital, a female patient blow jobbed me unprotected without asking if I'm free of all STD's - which I am (very important to say female because that hospital had been taking in gays after bad times).
5. My Dad keeps building it up in lists of wrong that I do - like it's mortar. He intimidates me by his fighting stance every time. Dad says that I've been a mental fuck for 10 years.
6. I don't want any of my old friends, I was treated like a tag along that never got called or included to me - I even made out with a girl who I loved but I called her and she hung up and never called like I was the idiot.
7. I had to cry to show how serious I was to get let out of the hospital in 2002. I was sentenced for a year by my father's report to the Police (which he lied).
8. In the YPI, Freddy Krueger came to my door in the middle of the night to kill us. I threw a bible and detered him.
9. My friend did hatred crimes on me for supposedly molesting his dog. I looked at it's dick at age 12.
10. The same friend set me up drunk and unconsciously raped at age 15 at an all male sleepover. I stood up to one of the suspected rapists and I told him the I got serious help and I told him specifically about the sleepover - I told him that I was upset by getting in his face with it. Since, I've turned it in to the Police, Psychiatrists, Parents and even my college counselors.
11. My father beats my mother.
12. I've been doing hookers since age 21. This activity is bad, I'm in dwarf type. I did them for love and affection.
13. I earned an Eagle Scout Award, graduated from a private high school - acceptance into every College and University, graduated from college - paid my own way, got on the radio at age 17 as the lead singer of my band, taught real school children Art, taught real school children swimming, bought all of my own cars - except one which was bought for as a gift - I still get grief about it like I don't have respect for my Dad and every time there's a problem to Dad, I get considered a piece of shit like these things I achieve don't matter.
14. I go to my doctor's regularly and I take my medicine regularly.
15. When there is an arguement, my parents team up on me and don't let me up in the screaming. I have to meek and not talk to not get abused.
16. They follow me in my head - both street and hospital staff.
17. I'm in my 20's and I'm balding, not hereditary.
18. I've had over 10 serious girlfriends and my father tells me to my face that I have no life. He says to my face that I'm a queer, with his serious disgusting squint and rage.
19. I tell my brother I want to audition for his band as the lead singer, reunite Plaid and do stuff together and it's nil.
20. Girl's play me like it's my duty to behave and take my medicine. When I try to get action, I get head games from them.
21. My pediatrician rectal examined me at age 17 and I felt so disgusting. I told friends in a serious way and they considered it normal. I told my parents and they considered it normal. Deep inside, I know it's illegal - like I want to kill him. I'm heterosexual and if any checks on it were to see if I were gay, it'd be sexual abuse in which I will kill him.



These reasons are why I can not tell my name. If even one had my name, I'd be usual at that. With no name, I am strong and free...